Triggering Photo (photo not included)

So, yesterday, my sister sent me a photo of myself when I was under 90 lbs and in treatment with an ng tube. I was very tiny (I was 16 and probably 5'3" bc I wasn't yet done growing and probably about 83 lbs), ng tube sticking out of my nose and rolled behind my ear, smiling and making a heart symbol with my very skinny, veiny hands at my own heart. I look very much like I have an eating disorder in this picture.  It is very obvious that I have an eating disorder. So my sister sent me this photo and with it, she wrote "Mom found this and wanted you to have it. She said it makes her sick to see how thin you once were, but that maybe it will make you feel better about how heavy you've gotten these past weeks. Love you!"

Um, wtf?? Sooooo I look disgusting, but maybe it can be a positive experience for me to look at it bc either A, it's better to be obese than emaciated OR B, maybe I can draw inspiration from it and not be fat anymore.  I'm not sure what my mom's intention was with that comment, but seriously WTF??? 

 NEVER send an eating disordered person who is sort of in recovery or who has just gained a bunch of weight a picture of themself at their absolute thinnest!  Seriously!! Common sense!! That is TRIGGERING!!! It's triggering even without the stupid comments, but even more so with them!! 

My mom is stupid for passing that on and my sister is stupid for actually doing it!

I am so mad and so so sad right now, I can't even type about it.  Now, I have this picture that I can't throw away bc my e.d. is like "keep it for motivation! you can do that again! you can get there again!" but I don't want to have it bc it makes me so so sad bc I'm so huge now and I was so tiny then.... So tiny.  

Just when you think it can't get worse, it goes ahead and gets worse.  People suck.