BINGE BINGE PURGE PURGE

Yeah so this is happening rn.  Big, fat, fucking binge/purge sesh. It includes:

Six golden Oreos, double stuffed

Two petit fours (lemon cake and red velvet cake)

Two nutty bars

Two peanut granola bars 

One sugar cookie

One chocolate chip cookie

Two of meal cookies

Six mini donuts

Three peanut butter cups

One Reese's fastbreak 

One inch slice of pumpkin roll

One mini cupcake, chocolate 

One mini cupcake, vanilla 

And gum for after I purge.

Yay, for ringing in 2015 as a full fledged bulimic!  Not as good as an anorexic, but better than a binge eater.  Mediocrity.  That's how I live my life. 

Here's to 2015.  Hoping it's not as super shirty as 2014, but thinking it will probably be worse! 

NYR: to lose 100 lbs, get to UGW, never be fat again. 

Holidays suck for ppl with an ED.

Thanksgiving blows. Like, hard.  I ate so much and couldn't purge bc of all the people around and I just feel like SHIT.  I want to go vegetarian again bc eating meat is horrible and disgusting and inhumane, but it tastes too good, so whatever.  I ate a bunch of dark meat turkey (the unhealthiest kind), about a pound of stuffing (no kidding), cups of cranberries, three bowls of mashed potatoes, corn, beans, five rolls and a slice of buttered bread, pumpkin pie, Apple pie, raisin pie, cherry pie, whipped topping, and ice cream.... I felt like absolute CRAP afterwards and all I wanted to do was purge, but it was impossible.  And next comes Christmas, then comes New Years, and OMG I cannot do this.  Holidays are miserable for people with an ED.  MISERABLE.  

Height: 5'3"

Current weight: 165.6

Goal weight 1:  150

Goal weight 2:  135

Goal weight 3:  120

Goal weight 4:  110

Goal weight 5:  105

Goal weight 6:   99

Goal weight 7:   91

Goal weight 8:   86

Goal weight 9:   82

Goal weight 10: 79

Ultimate goal w: 72

Reason: bc when I was 5'5" I was down to 83 and now that I'm 5'3", 72 would be the equal to 1 lbs less than my lowest weight/height ratio. 

I wonder how long it will take to lose more than half of my body weight.