9am, woke up, tried to jog, got winded bc I'm obese, binged on toast and butter, microwave pancakes with powdered sugar, oatmeal raisin cookies, and snickers bars.
12pm, job interview, lunch with an ex-boyfriend, stopped by a local bakery and bought two dozen donuts and cheesecake, binged on that, finally managed to purge (hooray?), took a nap.
3pm, woke up, binged on a box of hashbrowns, a box of oatmeal creme pies, a box of glazed honeybuns, and more snickers bars, managed to purge about 1/2.
5pm, job interview, dinner with old friend from NYU, just got back from buying 1/2 off cake slices (2), pecan rolls, more hashbrowns, biscuits, and Hershey's cookies n cream bars. Guess I'll start that binge soon. Hopefully I can purge it though...
I need to try to jog again... Wasn't even real hot today, it's just that I'm so out of shape. Can't believe I used to run 7-10 miles a day, everyday... God, I wish I could get that back.
For now, I'm sitting in front of the tv looking at the stash of binge food I just bought, thinking of how insane it is that I have no real job and I'm spending so much money on food... Jesus fucking Christ. My life is upside down. Is there even anything I can do about it anymore?
Help.
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